DEMI Lovato revealed her "addict" father's body wasn't found for over a WEEK after his sudden death back in 2013 and she still thinks about him "rotting."
The singer has attributed a lot of her trauma to her lack of relationship with her father and witnessing him abuse her mom.
During Tuesday's premiere of Demi's newest documentary, Dancing With the Devil, she opened up about how her broken relationship with her dad affected her growing up.
She told cameras: "We had an estranged relationship so we weren't close and growing up, my whole life, I longed for that relationship with him and then I resented him because he was an addict and an alcoholic, and he was abusive to my mom.
"And so I cut him out because I felt like it was causing more harm than good having him in my life."
The Tell Me You Love Me songstress then revealed how traumatic his death was to her.
"His death was very complicated because we don't actually know the exact date that he died. All we know is that by the time he was found, his body was too decomposed to have an open casket. He had been laying there for about a week and half before anybody found him and during that was Father's Day.
"So every summer now that rolls around, I spend it kinda thinking 'Was today the day that my dad died? Is it tomorrow?'
"And also knowing that by the time that Father's Day rolls around, he was just laying there rotting and that was the fear I always had for him, was that he would end up alone and he did. He died alone."
She further revealed that her dad was also bipolar and schizophrenic.
Sadly it wasn't just Demi's dad who was an alcoholic and an addict, but her mom also told the cameras that she herself had also been taking Xanax and had an eating disorder when Demi was younger.
Demi then explained that she often felt guilty because she had abandoned her father to the mental disorders he had been battling with when she preached reaching out to who suffer from those same disorders.
She said: "Ultimately, I know that he was too far gone. He needed to realize that he needed to help himself."
Patrick Lovato and Dianna De La Garza were married from 1984 to 1994.
They had two children together – Demi and Dallas Lovato.
Patrick passed away on June 22, 2013, at the age of 52 after losing a battle with cancer.
Back in 2020, Demi wrote in Vogue that she penned a "gratitude letter" to her father.
She said: "There was the anniversary of my father’s death, which is a couple of days after Father’s Day – a really hard time of year for me.
"But this year, something happened.
"I wrote a gratitude letter to him, thanking him for all the things that I got from him.
"It was this beautiful release of all the resentments I had towards him.
"I realized, for the first time, that I wasn’t going to have daddy issues for the rest of my life."
Demi's new docuseries premiered on Tuesday with new episodes coming out every week, where she opens up about how being sober for years led to her almost-fatal drug overdose in 2018.
The Disney Channel star relapsed just one month after celebrating six years sober and was drugged with fentanyl and raped by her drug dealer.
When discovered by her assistant, she had turned blue in the face and was rushed to the ICU.
Demi suffered three strokes, a heart attack, brain damage, pneumonia, multiple organ failure, and now fights blind spots in her vision.
She claims she can't drive anymore and will sometimes miss objects because she just can't see them.
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