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<\/p>\nTHE Real Full Monty\u2019s Ashley Cain got another woman pregnant after standing at his daughter\u2019s grave and asking her grieving mum Safiyya Vorajee: \u201cCan we have another baby?\u201d<\/p>\n
The couple had discussed having a child together before they separated, while struggling with grief after losing Azaylia to cancer in April 2021.<\/p>\n
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Yet now Ashley has said he is having a baby boy next month with a friend he has known since he was 18.<\/p>\n
It has shattered Safiyya\u2019s dream of them having a family together.<\/p>\n
In a heartbreaking interview with The Sun on Sunday, Safiyya, 36, says: \u201cI don\u2019t know why he would ask to have another baby with me knowing he\u2019s sleeping with someone else.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhen he asked me, it was the moment I\u2019d been waiting for. <\/p>\n
"I sighed with relief that we could reunite and have a family again. It was at Azaylia\u2019s garden, in front of our daughter, such a precious, safe space for us.<\/p>\n \u201cHe said, \u2018I don\u2019t want another baby with another woman\u2019, and asked if we could have one together.<\/p>\n \u201cI couldn\u2019t speak, the tears were rolling down my face.<\/p>\n \u201cOver the coming weeks I then waited for him to say, \u2018Shall we get back together\u2019. I truly thought he would, I thought he was just taking things step by step.<\/p>\n <\/span><\/p>\n <\/span><\/p>\n <\/span><\/p>\n <\/span><\/p>\n \u201cBut then, out of the blue, he told me he was having a child with someone else. <\/p>\n "It was like a hurricane had hit me. I am shocked.\u201d<\/p>\n Ex-footballer Ashley, 33, one of the stars of ITV\u2019s The Real Full Monty: Jingle Balls this week, did an interview saying Safiyya had congratulated him. <\/p>\n He also told The Sun on Sunday of his joy at being a dad again.<\/p>\n Sobbing and wiping away tears, Safiyya admits: \u201cHow can I congratulate him when I\u2019m in so much pain? <\/p>\n "Knowing my child has a sibling that isn\u2019t related to me has shattered my dreams of a future with a full sibling, of that family.<\/p>\n \u201cI feel embarrassed. I am speaking out because I need to stop sugar-coating stuff that\u2019s painful to me. I am devastated.<\/p>\n \u201cBecause he hasn\u2019t named this woman I\u2019ve had thousands and thousands of messages with people thinking it is me, congratulating me.\u201d<\/p>\n Azaylia was just eight weeks old when she was diagnosed with an aggressive form of leukaemia and tumours on her lungs, stomach and kidneys.<\/p>\n Former Coventry City winger Ashley and Safiyya, founders of The Azaylia Foundation, raised more than \u00a31.5million to fund her specialist treatment.<\/p>\n She was given several rounds of chemotherapy and a bone marrow transplant at Birmingham Children\u2019s Hospital but died at eight months.<\/p>\n Her parents struggled to cope. Ashley turned to alcohol and fundraising challenges to numb his pain and Safiyya constantly put his needs first while craving both affection and love from him.<\/p>\n Pulling at her top, with tears again rolling down her face, she admits: \u201cI was walking through hell and needed affection, I didn\u2019t get that from Ashley. <\/p>\n "I really wanted him but he was busy dealing with his grief. I was continuously trying to save him and look after him while drowning myself.\u201d<\/p>\n She walked on eggshells around him so as not to \u201cantagonise him\u201d. \u201cHe was drinking heavily. Not every day, but often. It was whisky, numbing everything out. He sometimes wouldn\u2019t come home and he didn\u2019t come to bed, he slept on the sofa.<\/p>\n \u201cWe didn\u2019t argue but it was as if he\u2019d cut off from me. I was always trying to save him, suffocating him with kindness. <\/p>\n "I put him first while there were times I struggled. I didn\u2019t ask him for support, help. I was saving myself the embarrassment and pain.<\/p>\n Before the trauma he was loving and caring. But he became dedicated to his own needs. <\/p>\n There were times when I actually thought, \u2018I want to be with her\u2019. I was desperate, I saw no purpose on Earth.<\/p>\n \u201cI would be in my car and just look up at the sky. If there was a roundabout I\u2019d think, \u2018Let\u2019s just keep driving, it doesn\u2019t matter\u2019.\u201d<\/p>\n Eventually Ashley, who appeared on reality shows Ex On The Beach and The Challenge, initiated the split.<\/p>\n Safiyya, now a mental health advocate, says: \u201cHe\u2019d had a drink, it was quick and brutal. He said he couldn\u2019t do it any more.\u201d<\/p>\n He moved out of the family home in Nuneaton, Warwickshire.<\/p>\n They continued to work on the foundation together, which is committed to advancing early diagnosis and new treatment as well as supporting families whose children are fighting cancer. <\/p>\n Safiyya says: \u201cHe moved in with his aunt and later on I did, because his family had become my family and I was struggling on my own. We had separate rooms.<\/p>\n \u201cWe\u2019d been friends before and we were again. I thought we would one day be a family again. I just thought he\u2019s going through,\u2009 you know, turbulent times.\u201d<\/p>\n They would often meet at their daughter\u2019s \u201cgarden\u201d at the cemetery and say prayers.<\/p>\n There, after he suggested a second baby, Safiyya waited for him to talk about their future as a couple.<\/p>\n She says: \u201cI didn\u2019t want a baby to think they\u2019d been born because I wanted Azaylia. I wanted to fill a void. It had to be as a proper family. <\/p>\n "I know Azaylia would say to me, \u2018Mummy, you deserve that family, that wholesome unit\u2019.\u201d<\/p>\n In June, Safiyya moved out of Ashley\u2019s aunt\u2019s house and bought her own home, believing the space would help. <\/p>\n She says: \u201cWe spoke nearly every day about the Foundation. We would hug like friends. I was waiting for him to say, \u2018Let\u2019s get back together, let\u2019s have that baby\u2019. I never asked him though. I didn\u2019t want to push him away.\u201d<\/p>\n Instead, he told her that another woman was pregnant though he wasn\u2019t in a relationship with her.<\/p>\n Safiyya says: \u201cHe didn\u2019t tell me who she was and, again, I would not ask.\u201d <\/p>\n Breaking down again, she adds: \u201cThat\u2019s the heartbreaking thing about it. Even when he told me, I put him first so he didn\u2019t feel guilty for telling me. Inside I was screaming and crying.\u201d<\/p>\n She also had to keep her dignity when the news broke online, with footage of Ashley talking about his new child. <\/p>\n Safiyya says: \u201cI was preparing to present an award, sitting on a table with Little Mix singer Leigh-Anne Pinnock and sprinter Linford Christie.<\/p>\n \u201cSomebody said there was footage of him online. I had no idea that was going to happen that day. I messaged him saying, \u2018I\u2019m just about to present an award. Like, seriously?\u2019 He didn\u2019t respond.\u201d<\/p>\n The pair only spoke again three days later, as they put on a united front for the foundation at Birmingham Children\u2019s Hospital.<\/p>\n Now Safiyya has booked in for therapy.<\/p>\n She says: \u201cI went to Azaylia\u2019s garden to tell her, like a mother sitting their child down to say, \u2018This is what\u2019s happening\u2019.<\/p>\n \u201cBut I felt choked and I never want her to see Mummy crying. So I\u2019ve not been able to do it. I tried, but I can\u2019t. It can\u2019t leave my mouth.\u201d<\/p>\n Softly spoken Safiyya admits she will struggle to ever see Ashley\u2019s new child. <\/p>\n She says: \u201cAs raw as that sounds, I find it difficult watching my own nephews, my own goddaughter play, as Azaylia should be playing with them.\u201d<\/p>\n But Safiyya is finally looking to a brighter new year. She says: \u201cMy eyes have been opened. I\u2019m going to stop being a shadow of myself and give myself the love and kindness I deserve.<\/p>\n \u201cI hope by admitting this has brought me such embarrassment that it helps other women going through pain too.<\/p>\n \u201cI have been an absolute mess. Crying for me, crying for Azaylia.<\/p>\n \u201cBut next year I am going to be strong. I am going to put myself first \u2014 for me and my daughter.\u201d<\/p>\n Ashley told The Sun on Sunday last night: \u201cSafiyya and I have shared an intense emotional journey together since losing Azaylia.<\/p>\n![](\"https:\/\/www.thesun.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/newspress-collage-hg1f82l75-1702499928665.jpg\")
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<\/p>\n\u2018I am devastated\u2019<\/h2>\n
Safiyya clearly still tries to protect him but admits: \u201cI had to be delicate around him.<\/p>\n![](\"https:\/\/www.thesun.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/12\/pictures-roland-leon-21-05-654687318.jpg\")
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